I Love and Approve of Myself...

That's the affirmation I am supposed to be telling myself hundreds of times a day. And I realize it is true... I Love and Approve of myself. But the rest of you people...you need to CHANGE and or Get OUT of My Way!
Ugggg I just really need a break on an island. Seriously I think it's nearing a breaking point for some reason and I am really trying to be positive and affirm myself. I am trying to attract money. I am trying to not panic over the financial situation that now faces us, the fact that I married my father inlaw when I married my husband and we just umm have different ways of looking at things. But it's constantly SOMETHING whirrling around in my brain. And IRONY my sweet friend. I am a person who THINKS too much and over analyzes EVERYTHING. Ask Anyone. I am also a person who doesn't want to think or feel so I EAT! Odd I know. Now add holiday stress and the ready availablity of such evil HOLIDAY TIME ONLY (Note Must rush or they will be Gone Gone Gone.. until next year when we may start celebrating Christmas in September) Goodies like EGGNOG and EGGNOG flavored Items, Gingerbread this and that.. Peppermint la ti das... and mmmm mmmm good MEALS! It's like Paradise in a cup, plate, or bowl. But I am not supposed to enjoy it because then I have to feel GUILTY because I am FAT! Well Bite me... I want it. I am sure this bad Fat-itude is just a crutch I am finding to justify the splurge and probably the reason that for as long as I can remember my holiday weight gain is 12-25 lbs (BETWEEN OCT-JAN 1st) Seriously.
But life is supposed to be fun and enjoyable. And I am supposed to LOVE and APPROVE of Myself. These things DO bring me joy and pleasure. They do not bring me a smaller pant size, so there is the issue I guess.
I just want to stop the world, stop my brain, and have a freaking couple shakes where the calories do not count! Do you hear me Santa!