Sweet Dreams are Made of These (NOT)

I had really weird dreams last night. At some point I was crying and I don't remember why. I woke up alot though..and this last dream that stuck with me, that sadly I do remember- I was having a Three-Way with Tom Cruise and Halle Berry.
I have no idea why. They seemed to be a couple and he was all into it and pushing me to get with her then all the sudden, she had a dick. So I am guessing that even subconsciously, I am not even a little bit lesbian. It was just really strange and makes me wonder what's going on in my subconscious.
What's going on in my reality is some sort of angst. Yesterday I was way focused on food and I binge ate a little. I have been doing really well at keeping my goals of eating healthier. I am not sure if I just hit the wall on being around lots of food I wanted and not eating it so I rebelled or I was just stressed or because it was available. I know I feel stressed and like I am missing something because I could not go food shopping and so am scrounging for lunch foods and thereby view that as lacking. I need to be grateful that I have lunch and really a pantry of stuff to eat. I will say it's getting pretty bare but plenty of food for the belly compared to alot of people.
I need to really keep my focus on myself and my commitment to treat myself better. I just sort of want to pack it all up and drive to a new place, but I know that it's true.. Where Ever You Go, There YOU Are. So I will be working on it here. I have that swirling in my brain where it's hard to get focused in one direction I guess.
I will be keeping on though.. smelling really good in my Halle Berry perfume.